the lantern of my life

When you are a kid a baby you have this superman who is always there with you apart from the undieing and remarkable love and support your mother gives you he is always there for u supporting your mother your ‘father’.
Your father plays a very special; role in your lives. While your mother cares for your wounds your father teaches you to look forward and not let little things stop you from reaching the goal.
Yes my dad is my super hero and my ideal. I love him soo much
And I miss him. So im typing out everyword coming to my brain at this late night.
Talking about it makes you feel better let it be anything.
expression gives satisfaction not just to the listener but in many cases it give way more satisfaction and relaxation to the person speaking.
yet I know someone who is specail
really very specail and close to my heart the relationship we share is given a name which I really don’t  want because we share a relationship which does not include expression or direct interaction . Its like without saying I know him I know him all without him expressing I know what he feels may be sometimes im a little perplexed.
when distance took its place is our this relation of 18 years
things seem to fall out of place,
few words expressing many emotions a little wired communication,
the  insecure feeling,
with some communication
without any expectation
the feel of wanting him by my side because things ultimately seem to fall in place on their own.
memories and the realization of not having you any near makes me  hypertrophic.
The fact of not being able to decide to choose between the present and the future.
sometimes it feels im just being selfish and missing out a lot without the two awesome people in my life here and then im the victim of drapetomania.
just a little buring desire to meraki  and feeling  alate.
-elica frank


elica frank